Random trip to nowhere

I love those nights when you arent really doing anything and you are having the time of your life...we went out to the middle of nowhere tonight to watch a meteor shower that we barely saw...and it was the best time I had in a long time...it was so great...we laughed, joked and had great fun....a good refresher...thanx God for givin me this time...I enjoyed myself...somethin I havent done in a long time.

What the heck?

So it all started at the beggining of the year when Pastor Al said this is my year of firsts...and I wont have to do anything things will just have to come....well all of you who read this know I dont really plan I fly by the seat of my pants...well I dunno what happened but I have been trying to plan what I am goin to do in the fall...I quit my job and will be done on June 15th...then I am goin to the ranch for the summer...well my plan for september was to move away...I really didnt care where I just wanted to get away...well all that has changed...my life was planned and God had a different idea the entire time...I am applying for an internship at The Dreamcentre this fall and I am workin on a couple of other things as well...and its crazy thats the last thing I ever thought I would be doing.

I have had this really hard week that I just wanted to scream and perhaps end it all...but then today...today at church...I let go I gave it all to God...and I am free...well lets hope this attitude continues to happen cause I am sure people like the happy Nikki better...so lets see here this is the year of firsts...I am stepping into a new season of my life...I am stepping into somethin I never in any lifetime thought I would be doing...its truly amazing....oh yeah and I am movin back in with my mom...so we will see how this all works out...that is unless I can find somewhere I dont have to pay rent ha ha yeah ok...anyways God has changed my life and twisted it and turned it upside down...well here we go...stepping into somethin new...bring it on.

What would you do?

What would you do if you had one last day to live? Would you run to everyone you know and tell them how much you care? Tell them how much you love them…and show them that you cared all along…

Why wait till those last moments…why wait till they say you have one day left…you have one hour left…you have one minute left. You should be telling them all along…tell your family…tell your friends…and even your co workers and others…every one that comes into your life each day knows a piece of you. So instead of waiting till they say you are goin to die…tell them now that you care.

Everyone who reads this everyone who cares…everyone who I talk to…everyone that has crossed my path…forgive me of anything I have done to you or said to you.

And I truly care about all of you....and I appreciate every thing you all have done for me...it will always be remembered...and dont forget to tell the people in your life that you care.

If the world were dreamers and the people believers what would that be like?

If the world were believers and the people were dreamers what would that look like?

If you believed in our future and I believed in your past what could we accomplish?

If I wasnt scared of you nor you of me who would we affect?

If the world were dreamers and the people believers...life would cease to exist

Small hearts...broken hearts...lost hearts...lonely hearts...empty hearts...confused hearts...hearts with fear...doubting hearts...

I feel it all...for who...only God knows...why...only God knows...

I pray for them...cry for them...scream for them...fight for them...

...what do you do for them?

The snow you curse...

brings me peace and joy....it reminds me that all is goin to be fine and why??? Cause my Daddy has my back. I know that it inconviences some...I know that the cold that comes with you are done with...I know you just want to wear your flip flops and capris...but the snow means so much more then all that to me. When it snows I see Gods true beauty...I was watching the snow today and it landed on my coat where I could see each flake and the difference each one brings. Really its actually pretty amazing if you stop to think how much snow falls in this world and each one is different...really it is. Instead of cursing the snow just stop and look at it...stop and taste it...soak up the beauty and enjoy the peace it brings. And before you curse it...think about what it is doing for someone else...think about the joy they get out of it...they may have needed it that day...think about that.

Lost

Untouched the beautiful white snow....sparkles in the cool crisp air

I lay in the blank canvas to make my mark

Waving my arms and legs...to make the angel within

Closing my eyes as I lay there....lost in my own world

Dreaming of what was....the happiness the joy

Childhood games and innocence

I look into the sky as huge flakes are falling down

Diamonds falling from the sky...how rich am I

Gods most beautiful creation made all for me

A promise He once made...saying everthing is ok

I open my eyes and see dark skies

Looking all around I see brown and grey

I look within and all is dead

What I once had...what I onced carried has left me

And so have the words for this poem...

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The best place to be is...

in God's hands.

Church was amazing today a celebration...of what you ask...of five years of it being here ohh and its now debt free...we paid off the mortage...our church is prospering.

God has been speaking to me this past week...tellin me to fight...harder then I have ever fought before...cause its goin to be a battle...and it has been.

Today at church...I realized that I cannot give up...childrens lives are at stake and I need to fight for them...my Daddy is pushing me into my destiny.

Things are coming my way.

Save us, we pray, oh Lord. Oh Lord we pray, give, us success! Psalm 118:25

For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor.
No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly. Psalm 84:11

My dreams are coming...my life is prospering.

I am taking a step this year that I have never done before...this is my year of firsts...I am taking a huge step of faith...I am being attacked on all sides...and the enemy is not giving up...

but...I am a fighter...I am more then a conquer and I can do all things through Christ....I will succeed...no matter what the world says...no matter what gets thrown at me...I will make it...I am not a failure...this is life.