She sits alone every night thinking how she is going to win this fight
These swirling thoughts in her head as the darkness closes in
She sits there in fear not saying a word
Trying to figure out ways to end it all
This life is not what she had expected
Not what she had planned
The thoughts that torment her everyday
The pain she feels inside
It’s getting too hard for her
She sits alone every night thinking how she is going to win this fight
The thoughts are like spinning tornados destroying everything in sight
She feels like the wolves stalk her at night
Waiting to devour her
Waiting to tear her down
She runs as far and fast as she can
She hides in the dark where no one can see her
The darkness devours her in the night
Alone she waits
She sits alone every night thinking how she is going to win this fight
She hides behind her smile in the day
So no one will see the fear within
Everyday she gets up and wears the same mask
She doesn’t like the real her
So she hides within a fake
Every night she cries her self to sleep thinking is she ever going to win this fight
Nicole
Andrews
22
These swirling thoughts in her head as the darkness closes in
She sits there in fear not saying a word
Trying to figure out ways to end it all
This life is not what she had expected
Not what she had planned
The thoughts that torment her everyday
The pain she feels inside
It’s getting too hard for her
She sits alone every night thinking how she is going to win this fight
The thoughts are like spinning tornados destroying everything in sight
She feels like the wolves stalk her at night
Waiting to devour her
Waiting to tear her down
She runs as far and fast as she can
She hides in the dark where no one can see her
The darkness devours her in the night
Alone she waits
She sits alone every night thinking how she is going to win this fight
She hides behind her smile in the day
So no one will see the fear within
Everyday she gets up and wears the same mask
She doesn’t like the real her
So she hides within a fake
Every night she cries her self to sleep thinking is she ever going to win this fight
Nicole
Andrews
22
11 comments:
mmm.... i know how you feel.... ok not totally, but definatly the mask thing.... you want people to see in, to see past it, because you feel alone, but you gaurd it so ...so that no one does... because the other side is that you may lose them. so you pick one over the other... in hopes to keep some sort of relationship... nikki, even if there is a flicker of light darkness cannot be! *sings* "Thy WORD is a lamp unto thy feet and a light unto thy path".... there was a blog that i wrote on Sept 20/05... go read it.... let Him fight... if we call upon His name He always provides! I love you.... no matter if u stay the same or change completely... you and only you are Nicole Nadine Andrews! Thats who we want! You have my shoulder to cry on dear! Be blessed, great stuff! Your sis, Dawn
You're not alone Nicole...you have your friends and people who care about you.
Don't try to do it alone, lean on the people around you, God put them there for a reason.
Mary
I don't really know what to say that you probably haven't already heard.... The friendships you've formed are enough. Are they not solidified enough to show the real 'you'? I WANT to see people for who they really are Nikki and that includes you. It's a process, and to be honest, I'm not even completely sure what you're hiding... or why you need to hide... what fear inside of you has made it so you want to hide? Where did that come from?
'she hids hehind her smile in the day
so no one will see the fear within'
I love these lines since I know how it feels. Don't do anything alone though. Let others know, let others be there to support you. This is hard, and I'm slowly learning how to do it too. You know where I am.
I hope you're enjoying your second day back at work!
NIKKI QUICK!!! LOOK!! AN OSTRICH!!!
oh! you missed it... shucks...that's too bad.
CRAP! Did my osterich get loose again? Are you SURE it was an osterich josh... not a lama?
*runs to window to check on osterich and peers frantically from side to side* lol
lol - it could've been a lama? Actually.. I'm SURE it was your ostrich! I'll get em for ya tho, don't worry! *grabs rope, makes a noose*
NOOOO.... NOT A NOOSE! Josh? Why do you hate me?... and my osterich? *runs in slow mow toward osterich to save it*
*plays comical cheesy music during one of those slow mo scenes.*
*wathces as ostrich runs right past Dawn and goes to Nikki*
I AM DISOWNING YOU.... its ok, i loved the lama better anyways.... *suddenly the osterich whips around and comes back to Dawn* ..... thats right! you know where your TRUE aliances lie! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
*pulls out shotgun from back pocket, cocks it, smiles in sweet delight. Points gun at ostrich and pulls trigger* Everyone, quick! watch as this thing just BLOWS up! Ostrich for everybody! YAY!
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